Still Confused

I thought I am a kind of person who takes decision and sticks to it. I have helped some of my friends take some of the most important decision in their life. But I can’t decide whether to join the B school. I think money makes it more difficult. Imagine the figures. 130 K for attending the school. I have to take a good amount of loan. Add to this the amount I would not be earning/ saving. When I think about these figures, something happens in my stomach.
So I should say no. But I am not able to make up mind to this too. And can you imagine, in the morning it is yes, in afternoon it is no and in the evening I am still debating the pros and cons. And sometimes this switch happens in hours. Can you believe yes in one hour and no in second and after some time may be?
It’s unimaginable. My story has got more twist and turns then in a bollywood movie.
Some time I feel with the amount of saving that I have now and the amount I would be earning in two years, I can give my family back in India a good and comfortable home they deserve. They have worked hard for me and its time for me to repay in a small way. That house would be dream house for them. I would be happy.
But I see the other side. What happens to my career? I would be stuck in the technical side and I would be stuck in the Middle East. A part of my mind thinks now that not so bad. Relaxed work environment. Good, no very good money. And excellent saving potential. Good number of holidays. I can take trip to almost any part of the world that I wish to. But I guess I will not be happy with my work.
I want to see now the bigger picture. I want to be move up.AAAHHHHHH....
So much of twist and turns in this blog too.....